Were you a dream, the one that took away a better part of my sleep?
Or were you a nightmare, the one that callously tormented my peaceful nights.
Were you a soothing melody that played constantly in my mind?
Or were you a cacophony that I wanted to mute all so desperately?
Were you a soothing touch? A warm embrace?
Or were you a claustrophobic feeling, a smothering intimacy?
What were you my beloved ? A blessing in disguise or a curse in hiding?
This state of quandary, of persistent dilemma, rocks me to unconsciousness each day, each night.
It parches my tongue, it badgers my mind. It hounds me, it agonizes me.
I hope to let go of you completely someday. From my thoughts, my dreams, my fears and my desires.
I will burn up your images, I will light up your memories.
But first, let me figure you out.