You bothered me when I was awake.
You woke me up from my sleep.
I would spend my nights crying.
You made my body weak.
I knew I needed courage,
To fight the battle ahead.
You left me with no strength,
I lost that battle ahead.
They thought I was making excuses.
They never saw you with me.
You crippled me and hounded me.
Whenever you were with me.
I tried to escape several times.
I tried to run away.
Did not know how foolish I was,
You were faster than me anyway.
Every place I’d go, every city I’d travel to,
You were waiting for me in each place.
I told myself to go far away from you,
You clinged on my back like a snare.
But I guess it’s time for you to go now,
Time for you to leave.
I’m tougher than I was,
I’m stronger than you thought I would be.
There is the door let me point it out for you.
You were never needed here anyway.
This is a poem about depression. How it stays with you. How everyone fails to understand your battles. How everyone thinks you are making excuses for your failures. How despite every attempt you make, it goes futile. It is a problem which unless dealt with will keep on putting you down. It will torture you and tell you, you will fail even before you start. It will push you down, it will rip you to shreds. Every night you spend sobbing into your pillow, trying to mute your shrieks. Those helpless moments where you feel like you are dying. Where nothing feels alright. Imagine being put in a stressful situation with this kind of mind. Imagine being asked to perform your best, at a time when your insides are screaming for help. Stop everything. Take a moment our for yourself. No one will understand your battle. Nobody needs to. Only you can. As on one hand your depression will not allow you to perform, and on the other every result will make you feel even more like a failure. It will worsen you. Therefore, you must heal yourself before you step into anything stressful. Take some time out. Take a deep breath and relax.